Thursday, September 10, 2009

Saturday, September 5, 2009

The Lift

By Noel Spencer

For a while now we’ve been pushing our luck with the lift I use when I move Jesse to change the sheets.
Next week I’m going to go out to New Jersey and pick up the new lift, but this time we’re going to get the deluxe model.

Feast your eyes on the WOK Patient Lift and Transfer.  It’s going to cost a bit more than we wanted to spend, but my love is worth it. Wish me luck getting it back to the city!

Saturday, August 22, 2009


By Jesse Marie Scott Spencer

The air conditioner blew. My air conditioner. It is so frigging hot. Yesterday it was 88 degrees, and today it is suppose to hit 90. I don’t know if I can stand it. I can barely sleep, I’m so hot. The sweat is just dripping off me.

Noel has been a sweetheart, as per usual. He’s brought in a cool bowl of water and sponged me all over to cool me off twice already today, and it’s not even noon. He put all the fans we have in the house onto me, and he’s out now heading into P.C. Richard and Son to get me a new air conditioner. I hope he gets back soon. I can stand it when he’s gone for too long.

I think if I had to choose, I’d prefer it to be too cold than too hot. At least, when it’s too cold, Noel will just pile me up with covers and hot water bottles. And he cuddles with me. I love it when he cuddles with me. He’s like my own little bed warmer.

When it’s as excruciatingly hot as I am right now, all you can do is take off as many clothes as you can, but once you’re naked, you’re naked. You can’t take off any more layers than that.

Noel says he doesn’t mind when it’s hot, of course. He gets to see me laying around in the altogether all day long. He adores feeding me ice cream and popsicles and all sorts of cold treats. That’s tops. I LOVE licking the popsicle and putting it all over my body. Cools me right now. Unfortunately, it heats Noel right up, and we’re right back where we started:

Sweaty and hot.

Though, I do find my self-feeling much happier than before our feeding….

Oh! Noel just returned with the new A/C! Super duper! Maybe I’ll write more after I’ve had a chance to let my brain cool down.

Sunday, August 2, 2009

We're All in this Together

By Jesse Marie Scott Spencer

I just discovered this scientist, Amber Case.

She is a cyborg anthropologist. Wacky, huh? She talks about how we’re living two lives. Our real lives and our second lives. Now you get up in the morning, and you get ready and start your day, then you get on line and you start your day. You clean yourself up and you show people you’re ready.

When I blog, I see my thoughts. I see others intertwine with my thoughts. We meld together in a super beautiful way. Even when people push back or put down. Even when people are hateful. I know that there are people out there like me. No one is exactly like you, but you can always find someone who gets you. And if they don’t get you, you should move on. People who don’t accept you for you aren’t worth your time.

Those of you who come here to read our posts, watch our videos, and share your thoughts are some of the best people in the world. That’s because you get us. Some of you aren’t even into what we’re doing, but you get us. You get that we’re us. You’re you.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

It's My Birthday!

By Jesse Marie Scott Spencer
O…M…G…!! Thank you so much to everyone who has sent so many presents. How cool are you. Noel went to the post office yesterday, and there was a tin FILLED with maple fudge!  That's totes my fave!

 There was also a box PACKED with muffins, cupcakes and donuts. It was such a pleasant surprise when he came home yesterday, but today there was even more. I got loads of candy, cookies, all sorts of baked goods. Someone even sent a cake! It really was too much. 

Sometimes I miss getting out to see people, but then I realize how many people out there read this blog and care about us. It’s really amazing. The fact that people I barely know and in most cases have never met in person send me such thoughtful, loving presents for lil ole me… Gosh, I just can’t express how full it makes me feel.

Speaking of full, last night Noel fed me each piece of fudge until my tummy couldn’t hold any more. We got romantic and celebrated my birthday at midnight…
It was fabulous!

There’s no better gift than getting food to play with. I love playing with my food. That’s what I call a birthday present.

Shout out to the sweet thangs who sent the sweet thangs: Max, Peter, George, Saul, Michele, José, Suzanne, Fitz, Dot, Dave, Bruce and Alex

I hope there’s more where this came from! Mwwwwah! 

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Machine Me

By Noel Spencer

We told you we were going to do it, and today is the day we debut our new video with our made on our new video camera.

The link to the new video MACHINE ME is in the side bar. Have you seen the documentary SUPERSIZE ME? This is our answer to it. Enjoy.

Click HERE to buy MACHINE ME! ONLY $30!

Oh, yeah, and for those of you who don’t know – it’s Jesse’s birthday on June 14th. Give her some birthday love next week!

Thursday, May 14, 2009

I LOVE Fat Fashion!

By Jesse Marie Scott Spencer

Check out this NAAFA Fashion show in Los Angeles from last year. It looks like so much FUN!

I hear that they do one every year as part of their national convention. They probably wouldn't welcome me, considering their stance on feederism.

I use to go to BBW events like this all the time. Two totally fun parties were DIVAS and REWIND. It was so much fun to meet up with other ladies I can chat with, relate to, and just have a good old time without people gawking at us, or worse, making comments like that a-hole did on our wedding night. Being inside all the time at least keeps the a-holes away, but I don’t get to celebrate with friends as much. I guess you can’t have everything.

There are so many wonderful clothing companies that cater to big girls, like me. Here are just a couple:


And, please, if anyone suggests Lane Bryant or Silhouettes to me ever again, I think I’ll SCREAM! They make fat clothes. They don’t make fashion for fat women. There’s a big diff.

OMG it’s been SOOO LOOONG since I’ve been shopping. I don’t remember the last time I got all dolled up and went out on the town. It was sometime last year. Probably Halloween. I do miss it, but sometimes you have to give up one thing to do something else you truly want. Noel and our goal are the most important things in my life, and I can’t wait till we hit 1000 pounds.

In the mean time, if any of you get some fun new clothes from either of the links above, send me a pic. I’ll just live vicariously through you all!

Friday, May 1, 2009

Survey Says…

By Noel Spencer

Hello all, I just want to thank you all for your support. Jesse’s last post summed up my feelings very well, and I didn’t chime in because I felt she covered it. She’s much better at expressing her feelings than I am, but please know I sincerely appreciate your generosity.

Jesse asked you for suggestions for our next video, and you all had so many great ideas about what the next video should be, and to thank you all we are making a video from suggested by our friend, Zach. He wanted a force-feeding video that implements a machine. So, I did it. I built a feeding machine, and we’re making new video “Machine Me”. We are going to use it every day for 30 days and see how much weight Jesse can gain. It will be a very interesting experiment, and I cannot wait to discover how many pounds she puts on.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Little Help from Our Friends

By Jesse Marie Scott Spencer

THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU! OMG, seriously?! You all are so fantastic. Over the past couple weeks there has been a super duper outpouring of love and support from the community. Obviously, you want to see me on camera again.

In 18 days, we have received so many donations. You raised over $3000.00 to the camera fund! Noel can buy the camera, AND we have enough money for a couple weeks of groceries. This means so much, and your love is FELT!

Special thanks goes out to our friend Marcus in Seattle who spearheaded this impromptu fundraiser. As many of you know, Marcus emailed us after Noel announced the camera died and said he wanted to help us raise money to buy the new video recorder. He sent emails to his list of feeders and fatties, and low and behold! We have some fans!

I received some very lovely emails from many of you who have been quietly watching our vids, and I just want to thank you with all my heart! Thanks for your sweet presents. They’re super exciting and adorable. I especially love the chocolates and muffin baskets – keep those coming!

Noel ordered the new camera, and it should be here any day. We’ll be back to video making very soon. And, since you’ve all been so extra super sweet, we’re taking requests. I won’t take off my clothes, but there are a lot of other things we LOVE to do. Food play? Jiggling? Force-feeding? What’s your pleasure, my people?

Poll in the right sidebar. Vote for your fave!!

Friday, April 3, 2009

A Letter from Marcus

By Jesse Marie Scott Spencer

The strangest thing happened. On Wednesday, Noel shared here that our HD camera he uses to shoot our videos crapped out on us and we don’t have the money to buy a new camera.
Check this out – our friend, Marcus, wrote this awesome letter and sent it to all the feeders, feedees, and SSBBW lovers he knows.

“Dear friend,

Yesterday two pillars of our community revealed a video camera they use to entertain and excite us quit working. They barely have enough money to continue their impressive life’s journey.

Jesse and Noel Spencer have been working for the past two years to be one of the few people to pass that elusive goal of becoming half a ton. This is a very difficult feat, no doubt, and the tool that helps raise money to achieve this goal is now gone.

As a friend of Jesse and Noel, I would like to plea with you, if you can support this couple in continuing their journey, buy a video. If you have a video, buy another one – or just use PayPal to donate to the Spencers. I have discussed this with them, and they have created a special button to donate to their cause. I just donated $300.00.

Be a part of recording history.


OMG. Have you ever read anything sweeter? I’m not one to self promote or beg for money, but look at it as a little investment. If you help us, we’ll make some more videos for you. As a little incentive, if you donate $30 or more ($30 is the regular price cost of one of our DVDs), we’ll send you our next video. So, it’s like pre-paying for your video. Cool?

Thanks so much, again, to Marcus for his help, and we hope you can help out, too!

Much love…

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Camera Death

By Noel Spencer

So, I have some bad news. I can’t make any more feeding videos. My camera died, and I don’t have the money to buy a new one. It’s causing me great grief because videos are a big source of income for us. This means we will need to cut back on the amount of feeding that we do, which will, in turn, keep us from reaching our goal as quickly.

At this point, I am going to have to take on extra freelance design projects to make ends meet and to raise the money for a new camera. I’ve been using the Sony Ultra Compact Pro HXR-MC50U 64GB Hard Drive HD Camcorder, but it costs around $1500.

We just don’t have the money right now. It’s a hurdle, but not something that we can’t overcome. Hopefully, we’ll be back with a new HD video sooner than later!

Wednesday, March 18, 2009


By Noel Spencer

There’s some great Feederism blogs out there. I really love Molly Ren’s “Stuffies” blog. She’s got a great, fun take on how to go about it, and she’s building a really strong community. Check her out, if you don’t already know about her.

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Channel Surfing

By Jesse Marie Scott Spencer

Sometimes it’s hard being in the bed all the time. But Noel knows how to make me feel comfortable. He is the only man to ever really get me. He knows I like to watch Extreme Makeover: Home Edition and The Amazing Race on Sundays at eight. He even got me two TVs with two remotes. I know, they got those new fangled TVs, and you can watch two shows at once. I get the main show on the screen and a little box in the corner with the second one going. But that would hurt my eyes. It was also too expensive to be getting headaches over! So Noel went out and got me a second TV. Cost half what those fancy ones do. I can have one clicker in my right hand and one in my left hand. I can watch two shows at once. Noel also got me the DVR, so I could time delay my shows. I start both shows at the same time, but pause one of them. I know I can record one and watch it later. Sometimes I do that. But watching two TVs at once is an art. When one goes to commercial, you pause it, and start the second. By the time you finish the teaser for the second show, the first is back from commercial. Pause #2 again, and so forth and so on. I give whole new meaning to the term “channel surfing.”

Noel makes my room feel like a sanctuary. Like we worship here. It's a sacred little place for only us. We kick back, relax and watch a few shows in one night. If I'm not on the internet writing something for you to read, I'm keeping up with my shows. I liked that show Heroes. It was great when they were all discovering new powers they got. There's this one lady, skinny little *itch, she's got two personalities. One is good, and one is bad. The bad one has super human strength. I can relate to her. Not that I have super human strength, but I do feel like I have two sides to my personality. I feel like I’m two different people. There’s how most people see me. Big. Well, too big. But, when I'm on line, chatting with all of you. I feel sexy and beautiful. I feel like that skinny *itch on that show. Unstoppable. Like I could take on the world.

Courtesy The Big Beautiful Wonder Woman Blog

What makes you feel like you could take on the world?

Saturday, February 21, 2009



I woke up this morning, and I realized I haven’t gotten out of bed in three weeks. It’s just been easier now with all the things Noel’s surrounded me with to be comfortable. Noel’s been preparing for this for months. We’ve been getting all this equipment delivered to the apartment so he would be ready.

I think I’ve been so focused on the details of how we were going to get to 1000 pounds it never really occurred to me that at some point I wouldn’t be able to get out of bed any more. I mean, we talked about it, but it never seemed real. That’s probably because it happens so gradually. It’s not like you wake up one morning and say “Welp, today I can’t get out of bed anymore.” It’s more like, “Hmm. I’ve not walked in three weeks. I guess that’s it. I’m never going to walk again.

It’s okay because I’ve got a great guy to take care of me. I’ve never met a man who’s more super duper than Noel. He’s so kind, attentive, smart, caring, and sexy. I love how he always let’s me know he’s there for me. We always knew it would be challenging, but we can meet any challenge as long as we’re together. I believe that.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Big Beauty

By Noel Spencer
Here are some beautiful old photos and illustrations I love.

Beautiful Bertha.

A vintage tapestry. Wonderful.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Sofa Sleeping

By Noel Spencer

Jesse sleeps on sofa
With late night movie
Flickering on face
Shadows play
Heavy breathing
Beautiful bigness
In my heart

It is becoming more difficult for Jesse to move. Sometimes, she stays out of the bed for long runs. She sleeps on the sofa for two or three nights at a time because it is so difficult for her to walk back to the bedroom. I enjoy when she stays in the living room because that means we are sort of in the same room. Only an arch separates our living room and kitchen. She can watch me cook, and I can pop over to her on the sofa to have her taste dishes as I make them. It is kind of perfect.

This is not going to last much longer. Pretty soon she will go back into bed, and she will stay in the bedroom. I thought about putting a little hot plate in the bedroom, but that seems a little over the top. It will probably be good for us to have some space from each other. Usually, I sleep next to Jesse on a cot, or I’ll crash on the twin bed in my office. It just depends on how much work I have to do. Often, when I’m editing or I’ve got a job, it is just easier to sleep where I’m working. 

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Finding Your Other Half

By Jesse Marie Scott Spencer

You know what my favorite thing about Noel is? He relishes life. He celebrates it and he shares that with me. I never thought I'd get married let alone find someone who encourages me to live life to it's fullest. He tells me I have a zest for life. I suppose I do. I think that's why me and Noel fit so well together. We just "get" each other. I know that might seem silly, but we do. It's not often you see two people come together like us to achieve so many amazing things together.

Sometimes, I think of all the great people who are out there, reading this blog, watching our videos, and I pray all of you find someone who "gets" you. It's such a lucky thing we have. I wish all people could find it. When you find your other half, everything seems just that much easier. You have someone you can count on. And that stands for a lot.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

A Milestone

By Noel Spencer

Jesse is 500 lbs. I can’t believe it. We are half way there. Technically, if you count from the day we met back two years ago, when she was 290 lbs., we’re 30% of the way there. We have 2/3 of the way left.

Right now, she’s gaining 15.5 lbs per month. I’d like to increase that if we can. There are certain ways to do this. I have heard antihistamines can increase weight gain.

I am going to suggest it to Jesse. If she says no, then we won’t do it. As long as we get there, it doesn’t matter when we get there. (But, it would be fun to get there sooner!)

Jesse is such a special person. She so alive and definitely the most adventurous woman I have ever met. She is always so ready to go where only a few have gone before. She is like an explorer charting a new map. It is so exciting when people want to push boundaries and become achieve a potential they know is deep inside them. Jesse embodies that strength.

I am so lucky.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Happy New Year!

Jesse – My New Year’s resolution is to exercise less and gain more weight!

Noel – My New Year’s resolution is to add ten new dishes to my repertoire so Jesse can gain more weight and exercise less!

What’s your New Year’s resolution?

HAPPY 2009!

Friday, December 26, 2008

Merry Christmas!

By Jesse Marie Scott Spencer

Merry Christmas one and all! It's been a fantastic day. Noel woke me up this morning with breakfast in bed - of course, every morning is breakfast in bed for me...LOL!

We watched T.V. all day long filled with loads of holiday fun. It’s a tradition; we watch the four holiday classics: It’s a Wonderful Life, A Christmas Story, A Charlie Brown Christmas and How the Grinch Stole Christmas. It’s a Wonderful Life starts off during breakfast, and when we’ve finished it, we open presents.

HO HO HO! LOL! What a riot...! That was my gag gift.

He’s lugs around this big camera, and that’s great for our videos we make. Hi def and all, but this is a
cute, little camera for quick shots. It’s also a little present for me. I told him when he goes out, he can take shots of the neighborhood, or the city, and when he comes home, I can do a quick upload to my computer and check out the world.

Noel, made me a new negligee for my present. I knew he’d been making it – it’s hard to keep something like that secret in a small apartment like ours. I could hear the sewing machine chugging away after he thought I’d gone to sleep. It’s pink with white lace. You’ll all get a peak of it soon. We’re getting ready to make a new video, and I told Noel I would wear it. Before we do that, though, Noel’s going to get his own private show (he’s got dibs...he is my husband after all!).

After presents, Noel rustled up some lunch while I watched A Christmas Story. It’s not his favorite. I think he had a bad experience with a BB gun in the past – LOL! Lunch was our annual tradition – fondue! Noel set up four different fondue pots around me: oil, veggie broth, cheese, and of course, chocolate! Noel dipped and fed me all sorts of fun foods. My fave was oranges in the chocolate – DE-lish!

We watched The Grinch and Charlie Brown during lunch, and by the time we got to the end of Charles Schultz’s masterpiece, we were making out like teenagers. I KNOW! It felt like when I was a kid, kissing with Terry Harris from next door. He’d come over to watch movies in our basement with that old wood paneling on the walls, and we would st
ar making out. My mom would come downstairs to “do laundry” every 15 minutes or so. Little did she know, there’s a lot you can do in 15 minutes when you’re 15 years old...LOL!!

Things got pretty messy with the cheese and chocolate (hehe), so Noel gave me a sponge bath. (He’s super duper!)

Noel was pretty exhausted, and he fell asleep in the recliner next to my bed. He’s snoring away as I type my Season’s Greetings. Check him out:


Friday, November 28, 2008


By Noel Spencer

I made this. Jesse ate this. It was amazing. Happy Thanksgiving!

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Feeding Jesse's Face

By Noel Spencer

You may notice a new link in the side bar. We are very proud to present our first video! If you like force feeding, sexy feeding and sensual feeding, we’ve broken it down into three short vignettes for you to enjoy.

Part 1 is a sensual soft feeding focused on lovely light foods like whipped cream, meringue, ice cream and weight gain shakes. We highlight Jesse’s supple skin and rolling curves. Put this on for a romantic evening with your loved one.

Part 2 gets a little racy. Jesse jiggles, wiggles and shakes for you. She eats an entire three course meal highlighting savory and spicy dishes to whip up your appetite. Lots of cleavage and butt shots in this risqué romp.

Part 3 speaks to the doms out there. A little light bondage, and a lot of cake. Watch me stuff cupcakes, angel food cake, and brownies, down Jesse’s throat. She washes it all down with gallons of whole milk.

Get your copy of FEEDING JESSE'S FACE today.

Friday, October 31, 2008

Sometimes You Gotta Be Sexy

By Jessi Marie Scott

Last year, we went cute. This year, we’ve decided to go sexy. It looks like this might be my last big party out. It’s getting harder to leave the apartment and down the street, let alone going out and painting the town red.

You know how you can be a sexy anything these days? Sexy Nurse, Sexy Cat, Sexy Firefighter? Noel wanted me to be a Queen. I told him I’d be a Queen only if I could be a Sexy Queen. He told me I was already a queen in his eyes: “Queen of Pounds”. I told him that was a fabulous idea. I would be Queen of Pounds and he could be my Sexy Manservant. I mean, heck, if I’m going to be sexy, he might as well be, too! (Not that there’s any way he couldn’t be sexy…LOL!).

I’ve got a leesh and everything. Yes, this Sexy Queen of Pounds is into whipping her Sexy Manservant until he does my every bidding. Oh, this is going to be so much fun tonight. When we get home, I’m going to make him feed me until I can’t eat any more.

And then…


Happy Halloween!

Monday, October 6, 2008

Life Gives You Lemons

by Jesse Marie Scott

I've been so excited to tell you all about our wedding day, but in the end it turned out to be a fiasco.
Everything was beautiful. Noel wore a sharp suit, and I was in a fabulous white dress. I know, white might not have been appropriate, but that was another tradition I kept LOL!
Things were going well, actually. Noel's friend, Hank, got ordained online and performed the ceremony, and Noel's brother, Sully, came in from Toledo. We decided to do it here in the neighborhood here in Cooper Park. It was easy for me to get to, and we were able to celebrate at our favorite restaurant, Carmine's.

The ceremony was beautiful. It was very simple and sweet, and Sully got some nice pictures.

Things went south at dinner.

We arrived and got a table, and of course all the waitresses at Carmine's showered us with congratulations. We had pasta, pizza and tiramisu! So scrumptious!

Then, this guy sitting at the next table started making noises. Snorting, specifically. Like a pig. It was quiet at first, but then he got louder. It wasn't subtle at all. We just kept eating, but the joy was slowly getting sucked out of the day.

Finally, Noel turned to the guy and asked, "You got a problem?"

"Yeah, I got a problem. Your bride is grossing me out."

"Why don't you leave, then?" Noel said.

"Hey, man, I come here all the time. This is my spot. Why don't you leave? You and your piggy."
He snorted again.

Noel stood up, and the guy stood up, too. He was bigger than Noel, and I really didn't want a scene.

"Sweetie, sit down," I begged Noel.

Noel eyed the guy, then looked at me. He smiled, and sat down.

"You take orders from piggy like that?"

The guy was right behind him.

"Sir, is this man bothering you?"

Vinnie, the manager came up behind the guy and stood between Noel and the guy.

"You sticking up for these people, Vin?"

Obviously the guy knew Vinnie. Probably a regular. Maybe they grew up together. Who knows. Whatever the case, Vinnie turned and looked the guy square in the eyes and said: "It's these lovely peoples' wedding day, and you're being a douche. Back off. Now."

And, with that, the guy turned and huffed out of the restaurant.

Vinnie smiled at us and said, "Sorry 'bout that, folks. Hang tight. Enjoy your pasta. I got somethin' special for you."

A few minutes later, Vinnie and all the waitresses came out of the kitchen with an entire tiramisu. And he must have gone to the 99 cent store next door, for there was a plastic bride and groom on top!

"It's on me," Vinnie said.

Noel protested, like he usually does when someone does something nice for him, but in the end, we accepted the generous gift.

After dinner, we went back to my apartment with my sister, Meredith. Sully had a plane to catch, and

Hank headed home. Meredith was going home in the morning, so we planned on visiting and relaxing.
Unfortunately, there was nothing relaxing about our time together.

Noel was in the kitchen, preparing a bedtime snack, when Meredith asked why I needed another snack before bed. She insisted I’d had enough to eat for the day, and asked why I eat so much. I told her about the 1000 pound goal, and she went off. She told me how I was being unhealthy, how I wasn’t considering my family and how I was disgusting.

“That guy at the restaurant was right. You’re just a big piggy!”

I still can’t believe she said it. I was so GD mad! I told her off like I’ve never done in my life. She’s made me mad, but this was the worst thing she ever could say. On my wedding day, no less! Lots was said, and in the end, I told Meredith she had to leave. Noel was in the middle of us, telling us to calm down, but neither one of us wanted to listen. We yelled louder and louder, until I told her to get out. She grabbed her suitcase and found a hotel for the night, and she flew out today. Didn’t even call to let me know she got home safe.

I’m so furious at her. She knows how to get my goat! I don’t care if I hear from her again. She crossed the line, and I don’t think I can trust her now. This was supposed to be my special day, and she ruined it!

As usual, Noel is amazing. He told me to focus on our future together. We have a great thing going, and he’s my family now. That’s awesome to me – you can’t choose your blood family, and sometimes they aren’t very nice. You can choose a new family, though, and Noel is mine. So full of love and support. In the end, I know I’m lucky. Sorry there’s not better news to report, but some days life sucks.

Unfortunately, that day happened to be my wedding day.

Normally, I’m a glass half full kind of gal. You get lemons, make lemonade. But, today, I don’t seem to have any sugar, and the glass seems half empty – of lemon juice.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008


By Noel Spencer

It’s a lot of work getting married. I thought since it would just be my brother and Jesse’s sister attending it would be a piece of cake, but it’s turning out to be a lot of running round. Jesse can help with some things around the house, but when it comes to executing errands around town, I’m doing most of that, including renting a car to pick up Jesse’s sister at the airport. She doesn’t get that people take cabs in NYC, so we’ve got to pick her up in a rental. It’s just one more thing.

I also must pick up Jesse’s dress from the cleaners. They are doing the alterations. I thought I could do it. I can sew a little, but this is special. I want it done right. The seamstress is over on Metropolitan Avenue. She is a Indian woman, and she’s done a great job in the past with minor alterations. We ordered Jesse’s dress online, and it is gorgeous. It just needs to be bigger. When I told the woman doing the alterations we want it to be let out, she tried to explain to me that I must have it wrong. All brides want to have their dress taken IN.

After much back and forth about whether I was right or wrong, she told me it would cost more for letting it out. She suggested it was about the extra fabric. I almost argued with her on this. Why does it cost more for someone to make something bigger than smaller? It is as if she is penalizing us for Jesse being fat. Ultimately, after speaking with some friends, they assured me that extra fabric would cost more.

All of this is to say: I picked up Jesse’s dress today! She tried it on, and she looks stunning. Even though the woman altered it to be bigger, I had her make it slightly smaller than Jesse’s size. It’s super tight, and her voluptuous, glorious body shows in all its glory. She’s beautiful, sumptuous, and classic all at once.

Jesse watches this show Say Yes to the Dress all the time. Her favorite part is when women get all weepy over their dresses. Gets her every time. She says they know when they put it on.
When Jesse tried on that dress…

God, let me tell you…she was perfection. The look on her face was priceless. And the tears flowed…and flowed.

I can’t wait for Saturday.

Monday, September 15, 2008

Old, New, Borrowed & Blue

By Jesse Marie Scott

I can’t believe I’m getting married in less than three weeks! OMG!!

I’ll be honest – this isn’t something I ever thought would happen. When I was a little girl, I dreamed of having a wedding, of course. I’d have a white dress with a long train that went down the isle like Princess Diana. There would be a ring barer, a flower girl and candles everywhere. When I got older, I rarely dated, and when I did date, I never thought of anyone as “Mr. Right.” Even after I started meeting up with guys that feed, I never figured I’d find someone who wanted to be with me long term, let along marry me.
There was one guy I dated (who will remain nameless), and I thought he might be “the one.” We were together just over a year. The relationship started a lot like Noel and mine did. We met on line, started seeing each other and we had a relationship. I didn’t expect anything because all my other feeders before him were short term. Guys usually will stick around for a few weeks, maybe a couple months, but no one ever really connected with me on an intimate level.

We began feeding more regularly, and we played around with the idea of goals. I joked that we should go for 1000 pounds one day, and you should have seen his eyes! LOL! He was so freaked out. We agreed 300 hundred pounds would be much easier to reach, and we started out feeding to gain. For realsies. Before it was a fantasy or something we joked about. This required serious obligation. He didn’t have that. He left a couple weeks after we started on our road to the goal.
Looking back on it, that is fine by me! His exit made room for my true love, Mister Noel Jonathan Spencer. Now we’re getting married, and I can’t WAIT!

I do have to get a little traditional: Something Old, Something New, Something Borrowed, and Something Blue.

So far, I’ve got…

Blue – I’m going have a blue bouquet. I love blue. It’s my favorite color, and I almost decided to wear a blue dress, too. In the end, I decided to be traditional and wear white.

Working on the other three. Though, I did see pretty pearl necklace on line. I showed it to Noel, and I think he might be getting it for me!! That would be my “new” item.

I’m not sure what the other two items will be, though. Any of you had a wedding? What did you borrow? If you have suggestions, feel free to suggest away!

Monday, September 8, 2008

Woke Up, Fell Out of Bed

By Noel Spencer

You might be wondering what a day in the life of a feeder is like. I am sorry to say, it is pretty typical. Wake up, make coffee, and rustle up some breakfast. This is where it deviates from what most people do, I guess. My breakfast is a bowl of cereal or some toast with peanut butter, but I make Jesse’s breakfast which is usually a dozen eggs scrambled with cheese, a large bowl of cereal with whole milk, and a tea with half and half and sugar. Jesse watches her morning shows while I get started with my day.

As a designer, I’m able to work from home. My room has a little office area and a twin sized bed. I’m usually on deadline, so I don’t have a lot of time to make big lunches. White Castle is down the street and McDonald’s is over on Grand, so I usually just head over there and grab a few Extra Value Meals. I get a variety – Big Mac, Quarter Pounder – and a few apple or cherry pies. Jesse is on the computer or watching television throughout the afternoon. If she gets hungry, there’s plenty of snacks in the fridge for her to grab, and if she wants something we don’t have, I’ll just pop out to the store for the special item.

Dinner is special. It can take up to two hours to prepare. I love cooking. This is when I get to feed Jesse. It’s relaxing, sensual and most nights it evolves into sexy time. It’s the perfect end to a long day.